Post by Nitro! on Nov 29, 2010 9:34:19 GMT -8
Yay semi-introspective drabbles. ^^ Say hello to Naruto's scrambled eggs brain during the Sasuke/Naruto rooftop fight in part one...you know, on the hospital?
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He feels the anger pulsing in him like a predator waiting in lamb’s cloth, watching through dark eyes, and -- why is he doing this? They’re the best of friends -- so he tells himself, but he knows somewhere deeper than the skin -- why are they fighting? Why is his best friend looking at him so hatefully? Why are his eyes narrowed and his chakra pulsing like a heartbeat, with anger, with hate?
Why is his vision red? Why can he hear the distant cry of some bird, the gasp Sakura takes in? Why can’t he feel the flames lapping at his skin? Why isn’t he burning?
It doesn’t matter. He can feel the rush and whirl of chakra in the palm of his hand, and it makes him feel strong -- stronger than Sasuke. (But that wasn’t right because Sasuke had always been stronger, always, that’s why he should be burning, that’s why he should be hurting --) He wants to use the power. He wants to hurt his friend because his friend is trying to hurt him and if they’re trying to hurt each other, they’re not friends.
That’s right -- they’ve always been the worst of enemies --
He sees Sasuke stare at the little sphere of raw power and it makes him feel good for a moment, just a moment, and that’s okay because he’s always been worse than Sasuke at everything so it’s okay if he’s just better at this. (At what? Killing your friends? Making them bleed? He ignores the low rumble of taunting because it’s wrong -- he isn’t going to kill Sasuke, he can’t kill Sasuke. Sasuke is his friend.)
Then Sasuke is bearing down on him with that loud jutsu and he just wants the noise to stop, because they don’t know this but it’s always hurt his ears, so he lunges too. He’ll finally be better at this than Sasuke and then things can go back to normal, and he’ll be able to think straight again --
He hears Sakura scream and for a moment it jolts him out of the haze, out of the craze, and he can see it clearly -- he is about to kill his best friend -- and then he feels the harsh grip on his wrist and he is thrown away into metal and the metal buffers him a little, and he has never been more grateful for his sensei than now.
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A/N: So I haven't seen the episode in forever, but I just never bought that Naruto would use a jutsu that he knew could easily kill Sasuke so freely.
It was written with many run-on sentences and it's as if he's thinking like someone dropped an anvil on his head from inside his head on purpose. I felt that it would more effectively communicate Naruto's state of mind to the reader. If it wasn't clear, he was being heavily influenced by the Kyuubi without the Fox actually being in total control. To expand on that would mean to type out several paragraphs explaining my AU take on the seal and I don't want to do that right now. :P
I'm posting it here for feedback's sake after I came across it this morning and still managed to like the idea of it, if not the piece itself. :3 Don't hesitate to critique. I'm adult enough to take it. If you want to discuss my depiction of Naruto, I'll gladly do so, as well.
P.S.
The title: an inferiority complex is a real psychological complex. The fic is not quite aptly named, but in a way, yes, it applies to my depiction of Naruto. No, Naruto does not actually have such a complex as defined in the medical context, neither in this fic nor (as far as I'm concerned) in the canon.
P.P.S.
The second paragraph was meant to show that Naruto is under the influence (of the Kyuubi, obviously). Did that get across the way I intended?
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Inferiority Complex
[/i][/center]He feels the anger pulsing in him like a predator waiting in lamb’s cloth, watching through dark eyes, and -- why is he doing this? They’re the best of friends -- so he tells himself, but he knows somewhere deeper than the skin -- why are they fighting? Why is his best friend looking at him so hatefully? Why are his eyes narrowed and his chakra pulsing like a heartbeat, with anger, with hate?
Why is his vision red? Why can he hear the distant cry of some bird, the gasp Sakura takes in? Why can’t he feel the flames lapping at his skin? Why isn’t he burning?
It doesn’t matter. He can feel the rush and whirl of chakra in the palm of his hand, and it makes him feel strong -- stronger than Sasuke. (But that wasn’t right because Sasuke had always been stronger, always, that’s why he should be burning, that’s why he should be hurting --) He wants to use the power. He wants to hurt his friend because his friend is trying to hurt him and if they’re trying to hurt each other, they’re not friends.
That’s right -- they’ve always been the worst of enemies --
He sees Sasuke stare at the little sphere of raw power and it makes him feel good for a moment, just a moment, and that’s okay because he’s always been worse than Sasuke at everything so it’s okay if he’s just better at this. (At what? Killing your friends? Making them bleed? He ignores the low rumble of taunting because it’s wrong -- he isn’t going to kill Sasuke, he can’t kill Sasuke. Sasuke is his friend.)
Then Sasuke is bearing down on him with that loud jutsu and he just wants the noise to stop, because they don’t know this but it’s always hurt his ears, so he lunges too. He’ll finally be better at this than Sasuke and then things can go back to normal, and he’ll be able to think straight again --
He hears Sakura scream and for a moment it jolts him out of the haze, out of the craze, and he can see it clearly -- he is about to kill his best friend -- and then he feels the harsh grip on his wrist and he is thrown away into metal and the metal buffers him a little, and he has never been more grateful for his sensei than now.
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A/N: So I haven't seen the episode in forever, but I just never bought that Naruto would use a jutsu that he knew could easily kill Sasuke so freely.
It was written with many run-on sentences and it's as if he's thinking like someone dropped an anvil on his head from inside his head on purpose. I felt that it would more effectively communicate Naruto's state of mind to the reader. If it wasn't clear, he was being heavily influenced by the Kyuubi without the Fox actually being in total control. To expand on that would mean to type out several paragraphs explaining my AU take on the seal and I don't want to do that right now. :P
I'm posting it here for feedback's sake after I came across it this morning and still managed to like the idea of it, if not the piece itself. :3 Don't hesitate to critique. I'm adult enough to take it. If you want to discuss my depiction of Naruto, I'll gladly do so, as well.
P.S.
The title: an inferiority complex is a real psychological complex. The fic is not quite aptly named, but in a way, yes, it applies to my depiction of Naruto. No, Naruto does not actually have such a complex as defined in the medical context, neither in this fic nor (as far as I'm concerned) in the canon.
P.P.S.
The second paragraph was meant to show that Naruto is under the influence (of the Kyuubi, obviously). Did that get across the way I intended?